Thoughts Of Mine
by HaliJo Webster

When I hear you sing, or witness your creative art...
I choose not to compare you to the greats or prior artists.
I see you as the great ONE that you are.

I work on NOT conducting,
rather,
allowing the natural orchestration of daily events guide me.
My THOUGHTS can change no ONE!

However, THOUGHTS are what changes ME completely!
I HAVE the power to CHOOSE the people,
places or things that are in my life.

It is my own THOUGHTS that take MY power away.
I am NO-ONE'S hat, crutch, or decoration.
I am a bag of bones that my soul hosts while evolving on this plane.
Respectfully with other water balloon and bones of hosts.

I consciously work on NOT DOING BUSY,
rather
Being "FULL OF MIND" and balance.
My doing busy is often a mindless treadmill of mundanes....
I prefer to stop that cycle.

I DO NOT wish harm on any ONE being.
Sometimes in confusion... I wish for you to get out of my way.
Wishfully, I will realize it is just my "SELF" in the way again.
This frees me from BLAME, and fills me with AWARENESS.
I place no BEING greater than SELF.

There is INTELLEGENCE, WISDOM, and KNOWLEDGE
that I do not have "YET".
What IS GREAT?
Is that I remain open, like a sponge my soul is drawn and
gravitates towards the truthzzzzzzzz
and allows for the natural ability to expand on it's own instincts
that I now... can trust.
I Know Divine Energy is behind this force.
This force has come to be my soul comfort and provider.
Sometimes... I allow another vessel to tug my boat.
Till I am able to sail again on my own.
Sometimes.....you may even climb aboard my vessel
and I will carry you. I remind and
ALLOW for "SELF" to know when to say
"YOUR VISIT IS PAST IT'S STAY"
sail your own ship.
This way I can avoid sinking each of our vessels
for going against the natural tides of our individual oceans.
Honoring my "SELF" through the GOOD, BAD, & CONFUSING...
ALL are wellness WHEN I AM AWARE!

I NO LONGER go to events
intending to GIVE MY POWER AWAY with statements such as
"did you like me"?
I NOW go for the experience to see if IT PLEASES MY BEING...
Instead of leaving full of self doubt.
I am not the ONE that will disrespect my OWN
being to be contested, or on display to be prized.
I WILL NOT choose that.

Yet, I WILL CHOOSE to speak out about
such despised UNHEALTHY cow gathering
disguised as theatrical!!!
yet... I think!!!
are human demises...
as with violence these things
cripple us as humans becoming and evolving.

When I tire with improving "self" so "fishily" and right fully so.
I will include my awareness to extend to you,
my fellow "beings".
WISHFULLY, we will share that place together....
that place of oneness while on this plane.
I am here to grow and connect with other beings evolving.
Both as TEACHER and as STUDENT.
To use share and declare the talents I possess,
and proclaim my rarity.
For to do other than that would be going against my trueness,
a trueness we all own and is unique to our individual soul beings.
Holding on to and staying true to my INNER GUIDE,
is my "SELF'S" final law.

I may identify with your past and you mine,
It is the differences and
new experiences we are creating in the NOW and the past it becomes
that intrigues my "BEING" and holds my curiosity.

I wish to remain continuously fascinated by
watching your tower define itself,
while erecting my own "becoming".

I may pass your vessel... and you mine.
Let's wave at the "ONE" with no strings attached.
Our evolutionary becoming has no set time,
ONLY the "SOUL'S SELF" holds that.

There is NO RACE,
there ARE, I believe...
"SELF" challenges to increase individual awarenesses.
I respect that "SOUL SELF" and "ONENESS" of the mind...
LIVE IT FULLY!

My desire?
To find compassion in "joy and sadness"
and have a better understanding of my emotions.
I wish to not BLAME -
no "ONE", no "THING" or "PLACE"
for hard lessons learned and pangs.
NOR to CREDIT no "ONE", no "THING" or "PLACE"
for the WELL feelings and easier lessons and belly laughs.
THESE ARE ALL MINE to BEHOLD!!!!!!!!!

I DO NOT have to have bear a child
to make a conscious decision to not shop at certain retail franchises!
Any child of slave labor IS A CHILD OF MINE!

There is no "ONE" model of
therapeutic, psychological, or psychoanalytical methods
that I follow...
gender specifics, religions, creeds colors or space and time...
Just a colorful dance of all that passes my thoughts and "being"
that are deciphered by "soul's" "SELF"
I CHOOSE what allows my "SELF".
I trust this to be true!
I sleep at night.
No regrets.

While living mind"fully"
I trust my INNER SELF,
it is the "ONLY" guide that is my true healer.
I AM THAT I AM
NO OTHER I AM "self"
COMES BEFORE ME!

© HaliJo Webster, Dec 2005
This poem is an excerpt from my Poetry book, HaliJo's Poetry Chap Book - Vol. I